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Randi Feymar
29 April 2020 @ 12:00 am
 Just a quick note that this journal and most of the entries in it are "friends only"

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I tend to talk about a lot of personal and/or controversial topics and as such, ask that only people who are mature enough continue on to read. Please comment here if you would like to be added. 

Thank you. :)

 
 
Randi Feymar
13 February 2011 @ 04:43 pm
 I think it is time for me to move on. 

While I've enjoyed my time as Randi Feymar... it appears obvious this stage of my life is over and I shouldn't dwell on the past any longer. 

No, I'm not giving up on Randi. I am him and he is me, that won't change. I am, however, dropping Riva's suggested last name: "Feymar" and am going to choose something for myself. 

As such, I'll be migrating all of my accounts over to a new name, and closing down several things. I'm probably going to do this over the course of the evening or next few days, and will be taking my time deciding what things I need to keep, and what I can let go of. 

I apologize for the need to switch accounts, and understand if you no longer wish to keep track of me. If you do still want to keep up with me, please let me know, and I'll be happy to share where I'll be moving to once the account is created. ^.^
 
 
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Randi Feymar
25 January 2011 @ 09:55 am
 Yep. Here I am again, feeling lost, hurt, lonely, and betrayed. 

Oh well. Can't fix it. Hell, I don't even want to anymore. 

Oh, right. Nathan broke up with me again. I just *love* how he makes it all my fault. Because *I'm* not good enough. Well, for fuck's sake, it's not like he was doing wonders himself. Whatever, it's done now. 

I can't get the help that I need. So, I'll just sit here and hope things improve someday, or at least care enough to stop sitting and waiting for them to fix on their own. I had Mom take away my meds so I don't do anything stupid. *sigh* I hate this so much, words don't do it justice. 

The upside? I *did* hit 85 in WoW yesterday. I also found a really cool, really large stuffed horse last night at 1 a.m. when dad took me out for a ride to the grocery store to cheer me up. It worked I guess, I did end up sleeping like a rock once I got to bed. No more nasty dreams, just, a nice peaceful nothingness. This morning I found an old favorite game, Theme Hospital (you build and run hospitals), from the PS1, way back when. Well I found it on the PSP store, and Dad let me get it. 

Downside... I gotta stop finding happiness in material things. But, how can I change that, when the immaterial things that are important to me keep hurting me and leaving me and leaving me depressed and miserable. At least, for instance, that stuffed horse I got won't break my heart. It won't yell at me and make me feel worthless. It'll just sit contentedly and cuddle with me and listen to me talk.

Anyway, enough of me rambling... ^.^;
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Current Mood: depresseddepressed
 
 
Randi Feymar
01 December 2010 @ 09:09 am
I redid my website at http://psychohusky.com

I'm very, very proud of the new design. ^.^

In other news.......

CATACLYSM! In less than a week.... *squee* Worgen!

That is all.  
 
 
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Randi Feymar
20 March 2010 @ 01:13 am
 Well.... it finally happened. 

Riva and I broke up tonight. 

There isn't much else to say right now. I feel so numb, hurt, and lonely. I know the hurt will fade with time... but it doesn't stop it from hurting. 

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Current Mood: crushedcrushed
 
 
 
Randi Feymar
12 March 2010 @ 10:21 pm
 So... I was playing around in WoW a bit today, looking for Loque'nahak again, with no success. 

I decided to look for the other two beasts for a minute. Just on the way off chance I happened across one. I went to the spirit bear spawn point first, only to find another hunter camping out for him. I was just passing around, and didn't want to interfere with someone who really wanted the bear so I let it go and flew to Zul'Drak. I looked south of Zim'Torga, and found nothing. I thought I'd check the other spots... and decided if I found by some miracle Gondria, I would give up on Loque and keep her instead, since the purple glowing kitty looked decent in the model viewer. 

Well, I flew south, below the troll thing-y and back into the snows with the cursed leopards. NPCScan goes crazy. I freak out. Guess who it is? Gondria! I freak out more. I look around in a panic and sorta go into auto-pilot. I land in a clear spot... set my trap at my feet and let loose an arcane shot to get her attention. She looks to me, and pounces... right into my trap. Start the tame, and spend the next 20 seconds pleading that nobody happen across and steal her away. Soon enough, she was standing by my side, purring contentedly as she chomped on the salted venison I fed her.

Needless to say, I have given up on looking for Loque'nahak and am going to keep this pretty kitty instead.

I took a quick screenshot before heading back to Dalaran
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Now to work out a name for her...

^.^

EDIT: Her name is now Ashi.
 
 
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Randi Feymar
09 March 2010 @ 02:08 pm
I've been meaning to post about these guys for a while now...

I love being a hunter in WoW. I first tried a mage and hated it and quit my trial and gave up. However, when I tried the game again with my dad, I decided to try the hunter class and it was perfect. It's a wonderful mix of the things I like in video games. 

One of the most important things to a hunter, and particularly to a Beast Mastery hunter such as myself... is of course, the pet. 

As of right now hunters can purchase up to 4 stable slots, allowing for 5 pets total. I have finally decided upon my five, and currently have three out of those five tamed. I am missing the two spirit beasts yet, due to not being able to find Loque'nahak, and not being 80 to even begin looking for Skoll.

Today I found a useful program; a model viewer. I took pictures of myself and my pets/future pets (only thing missing is my guild tabard, couldn't figure out how to get that in there too). 
 
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Now for the rundown on my pets:

#1: "Rondo", Prairie Wolf, found in Mulgore, the Tauren starting area. This special little wolf barks when you click on him. This was the first pet I tamed when I hit level 10. Well, to be more accurate, I tamed a coyote from Westfall, and just recently picked him up again with the barking.

#2: "Squishy", Bjarn, found in Dun Morogh, the Dwarf starting area. One of my most precious pets, even though he isn't particularly rare compared to some, he is my tank and is almost always with me. 

#3: "Lylan", Humar the Pridelord, found in the Barrens. This guy is such a pain to find. I first looked for him for my dad back on our old realm, and grew attached to the black lion. I decided to look for him myself, and one night, a hunter friend looked with me. I left for a bit, after growing tired and returned to find that my "friend" had tamed the lion in my absence. I was so upset... and I gave up for a long time. Until one day, I said screw it, I'll look again, and as I was flying overhead I spotted the majestic lion and raced to him for the tame, praying that nobody snatched him away. I got him, and he remains one of my all-time favorites. 

#4: "Ashen", Loque'nahak, found in Sholazaar Basin. I haven't tamed this one yet. But I plan to keep looking. At first I didn't want him, only Skoll... but then, I saw his mate, Har'koa in Zul'drak... and decided that the design was quite pretty in person. I dismissed it for a while, until I saw a tamed Loque in Dalaran. I ran beside it for a minute... and decided I had to get him for myself. I will continue to look for him until he's mine.

#5: "----", Skoll, Found in The Storm Peaks. As soon as I saw this beast, I knew I just have to get him once I hit level 80. I am currently level 77, and will begin searching for this guy once I hit 80. Now, I don't have a name for him yet, still thinking on that one. 

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Randi Feymar
01 March 2009 @ 11:40 am
Okay, So I am a bit out of order on this, but I needed to explain why I just deleted a good 5 journal entries before I started over. I saved an archive of the old journal, so I'm going to repeat a bit of what was lost because I liked some of it. I'll get into new stuff soon.

About Me

My name, as it's come to be known in the past few months or so, is Randi Feymar. I have a myriad of issues, big and small going on at the moment. During the past two years I have been diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder (with Bipolar). I hear voices. I can usually tell that they don't really exist, but some times it is very difficult to quiet them. I have some severe mood swings. I can go from terribly depressed to overwhelmingly happy and back to depressed in the span of less than an hour at times. The littlest things will set me off some days. I take several medications to help ease these symptoms. Most days they work wonders, others, not so much.

I consider myself bisexual. No, I don't exactly have both a boyfriend and a girlfriend, but rather I just mean that I am attracted to both sexes. Another thing I find, is that I am furry. I like the furry fandom. I love drawing anthropomorphic characters, and find I relate to them strongly. I identify with foxes the most, and while I don't pretend to be a fox, I think they are graceful and intelligent and the patterns of their fur are pretty. Thus why my character is, and has been, a fox.

To make things more simple, especially for those of you who I know in real life, My boyfriend is Nathan. Online he goes by his female character, Riva (much like when I started going by Randi, though my circumstances have changed a bit). So I will be referring to her as Riva in this journal.

About my Journal

I like to write. I think that I suck at it. But I enjoy it all the same. I write about a lot of things. I like to discuss things that interest me, or things that have happened to me. In this journal you will find some of my artwork, a lot of narration on my life and the things I am struggling with at the moment and a bit of commentary on other things like Second Life, other video games, movies, and books that interest me, or have been brought to my attention and so on.
 
 
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